definition

what defines who u are? is it the things u say? the things u do? the things u don't say or do? the ppl u surround yourself with, the things u believe? the mistakes u make? the lengths u go to correct those mistakes? is it what u leave behind at the end of it all? and do you define yourself or do others end up getting to do so?

i'm clueless as to why i'm writing this. i'm sitting her, debating whether or not to wait for this episode of How I Met Your Mother to load and then watch it, depriving myself of much needed sleep to feed a silly addiction, all the while listening to the new James Blunt song 1973 on repeat. personally, i think moments like this define who i am. sitting here listening to music i feel complete. it's not like i'm overjoyed, but i'm not depressed either. it's just kinda all i need, in this moment.

i hope we each get to define ourselves and i think we all can and to a certain extent do. obviously other ppl will attempt to define by forming their judgments and opinions. but u cannot control any of that and u don't need to. if u and i are close, i will know u for who u are no matter what any other person says, especially someone who doesn't know u.

it doesn't mean it's easy. it's never fun. but u always seem to reach a point of just being like whatevers about it [wow...look at my impressive use of words...haha]. anyway...i'm rambling at this point. ooh...sleepiness wears on me...but all i want to do is sit here, listen to music, watch TV...