on a high

[i'm on a high, on a high]

[i'm on a high, on a high]

i'm on a high, on a high
there's nothing more to it

you're the sea and the sky and the blue that runs thru it yea
and there are some who say there are so many things i need
so i run or i fight and i crawl or i scream and i bleed, i bleed, i bleed

i'm on a high on a high
there's nothing more to it

i have the sun it's a star, why should i refuse it
and there are so many reasons i could give u why i should be down
there's not enough money or time and my love u're not around, around around

i'm on a high on a high
u're the sea and the sky
i'm on a high on a high
i'm on a high....

it's a lie, it's a lie, don't u believe it
cuz i've tried and i've tried, can't really see it
now i'm trapped in side my conspiracy of happiness

said i was yours, u were mine but i didn't really mean it
and i lied and i lied, wish u hadn't seen it
now i'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness

...

i'm on a high on a high there's nothing more to it
u're the sea and the sky and the blue that runs thru it yea
there are some who say there are so many things i need
i'm on a high on a high there's nothing more to it

u're the sea and the sky

i'm on a high on high

i'm on a high.....

it's a lie, it's a lie
don't u believe it
cuz i've tried and i've tried, can't really see it
now i'm trapped in side my conspiracy of happiness

said i was yours, u were mine
but i didn't really mean it
and i lied and i lied, wish u hadn't seen it
now i'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness

i'm on a high on a high
u're the sea and the sky
i'm on a high on a high
i'm on a high...

- Duncan Sheik - On a High [Gabriel & Dresden Love from Humboldt mix]

this song defines how i feel sometimes. in life. it's almost the definition of the moments i often write about of pure contentment, except maybe those moments are purer that just a high. even during the most difficult times in my life i find myself "on a high" for no good reason...my spirit unbroken, unphased.

i've spent a lot of time writing too seriously about crap in my life lately. maybe i just needed to for a while but it's not really my blogging style [which is goofy and involves my random thoughts about random things in life, oftentimes music].

i hope that each day i figure it out a little bit more. i'm scared about things sometimes...scared about feeling things i really don't want to feel. but i'll just enjoy the highs, get thru the lows, and just be...
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the surprise of the nite: i ordered a raspberry iced tea at this spot i'm at here in Westwood and it actually had some raspberry in it. pretty awesome, even if it is a bit sweet. i think i'm gonna roll to the beach and clear my head for a few and then head home for the nite...